I dont know what i should do anymore..
i'm getting so fed up at home with my mum bitching me every time she sees me...
i really dont know how much more of this can i take...
i might just end up quitting everything im doing right now and be a slacker..
dance...music...sports.. studies... work and all.. haiz...
really dont want to give them up.. they are things which i love so much...
So many of a times i want to just kill off all my emotions.. and become a zombie.. living life day by day.. passing it all by.. so that i wouldnt be so stressed up and fed up with everything...
I'm so fed up when i see her in distress or in dispair.. i want to help her.. i want to show her that someone is always there for her when she needs a person to be there the most... i just dont know how.. i've been wanting to sit down and have a long chit chat session with her.. but fate just doesnt seem to allow it to happen.. i hate myself for not being able to keep her happy and smiling all day long.. i hate myself for not being able to show her so many things which i want to...
i'm starting to hate almost everything in my life.. except my frens..work..and obviously her..
should i stay or should i go.. is a question still flying about my mind...
