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Samuel Ng Xu Hau
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10 Feb 1989

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    Tuesday, December 23, 2008

    Its Been Awhile...

    Have been so busy lately with IPP and other commitments haha didn't have the time to really update this..

    Work has become tons and tons more interesting haha.. i have been learning alot everyday from my superiors and all.. things that i will never learn outside...

    Things at home haven really been fantastic... so much so that i dread going home everyday.. and even if i am home i just ignore everything else.. stick to my com.. stick to my guitar.. haiz...

    Been feeling so lonely lately.. its been awhile since we sat down and chat... i really miss those times.. when im around you everything seems to be right..

    Haiz.. what should i do.. i really dont know anymore.. please tell me what should i do... this mask i wear all the time in front of others.. the mask of a smile which supposedly makes everyone feel better.. but deep down inside it hurts.. it burns.. the pain is unbearable... the burnden upon my shoulders is so heavy... without seeing u everything feels so terrible.. like there is no more meaning to life... i know i shouldnt be like this.. i cant seem to help it.. argh... why wont chances be given although i strive so hard for things.. just why... why.... why must it be me that wont get chances.. and others can have chances... sometimes i really feel like dying.. like it would solve all my troubles although adding on troubles for others.. haiz.. i really dont know anymore...

    ~ thinking of you ~ at 2:06 AM

    Monday, December 15, 2008

    Blind By Lifehouse

    I was young but I wasn't naive
    I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
    And still I have the pain I have to carry
    A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

    After all this time
    I never thought we'd be here
    Never thought we'd be here
    When my love for you was blind
    But I couldn't make you see it
    Couldn't make you see it
    That I loved you more than you'll ever know
    A part of me died when I let you go

    I would fall asleep
    Only in hopes of dreaming
    That everything would be like it was before
    But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
    They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

    After all this time
    I never thought we'd be here
    Never thought we'd be here
    When my love for you was blind
    But I couldn't make you see it
    Couldn't make you see it
    That I loved you more than you'll ever know
    A part of me died when I let you go

    After all this why
    Would you ever wanna leave it
    Maybe you could not believe it
    That my love for you was blind
    But I couldn't make you see it
    Couldn't make you see it
    That I loved you more than you will ever know
    A part of me died when I let you go
    That I loved you more than you'll ever know
    A part of me died when I let you go

    ~ thinking of you ~ at 10:49 AM