Haiz.. life has been getting worse to worse and even more worse..
School's been terrible besides friends and cca.. Project is horrid due to alot of problems occuring..
There are so many questions i wanna ask u... and i really wonder how would u reply...
How do you feel about me?
If i were to suddenly just disappear one day, how would you react?
If i were to die tomorrow what will u do?
How can i help u get over your past..?
Why do u always torment yourself..?
Am i doing the right thing?
Is liking you/loving you wrong of me?
I know i may irritate you or even make u pissed off at me sometimes.. maybe alot of a times.. due to the certain actions which i actually do... like caring too much.. worrying too much.. sometimes i really cant control myself..its really hard to control when u actually have someone you like..cause its like you always wanna stay close and be near to that person which u like.. although i have been trying very hard to control myself.... haiz..
I just wanna cut myself and lie there.. bleed myself to death.. so that i wont have to worrying or care about anything anymore... i just want to die.. im killing myself inside every single day.. losing my sanity bit by bit.. feeling like shit.. would you save me from this hell i'm in?.. i dont know.. i feel like leaving every single thing behind.. hit my head.. lose all my memories.. so i wont have to feel this immense pain and agony.. haiz...
~ thinking of you ~ at 1:55 AM
Far Away
For a moment in space
The time cannot erase
The world was ours
It was a different place
Your so far away from me
Yet so close to me
The nights grow colder
Its harder to see
Your so far away from me
Yet so close to me
Take my hand
And set me free
I'm staring at the ceiling
My thoughts are all spinning
I can't sleep
Theres no point trying.
Some lyrics i picked off my brother's new song called Far Away. pretty much says alot of what im feeling again. haiz.. this stupid feeling again sux man.. you seem so near yet so far.. i'm writing another song again hahha. prolly a emo one i guess haha stay tuned
~ thinking of you ~ at 5:26 AM
I'm Back to Post Finally lol
Its been awhile since i last posted. well guessed nothing much to type out and rant out hahha. but now got again.. dammit la dunno how i hurt my elbow yesterday pek chek hurts so much man.. project go so much thing to clearr ahhhhh..
today im super pissed off with one fucking bastard.. god damm him sleep the earliest do the least things. everything all we change for him. still wanna make so much fucking noise and annoy me and the others. im so gonna slap him in the face soon. cant stand his attitude.
gahh enough about him.. spoil my mood onli..
aniways after presentation. me, tobias and raymond went hougang meet regina and joyce to go kbox.. lol.. first time i actually sang so many songs at a kbox.. wasnt spared at all man haha.. damm funny siah first time i did excercise in a kbox cause lost in a mini game of singing hahha=X.. overall was damm fun.. i had a tequila sprite and a rum white grape both drinks were damm nice la.. haha. man i wouldnt mind going kbox again hahha.
although still leaving things to fate, i still wanna help her overcome alot of things.. whether or not the end result would be in my favour or not it doesnt matter bah haha..
so much more relaxed now hahah.. i better buck up on my project so i wont let my other 2 great team members tobias and raymond down man haha.. two of my close frens and brothers in sch =)
~ thinking of you ~ at 2:12 AM
so bored recently
Mann dance practice was tiring.. wow i've got 6 partners man haha.. gosh.. dunno how im gonna find time to practice with each one of them... cobwebs and dust has been surrounding my blog haha mainly due to the reason of me being super busy and another im not emoing anymore =D.. good or bad it may be hahha. darn project is stealing the life outta me stupid steganography hahah damm java.. lalala lol... hope i do well in the project needa work really hard hhaha.. jia you for me! hahaha and of course also tobias and raymond my 2 good bros in my project group hahha we must jia you all the way.. screw the bloody leader.. im so bloody pissed off with him.. dun wanna give a shit about him animore.. later i get high blood pressure hahhah. dum di dum lol
~ thinking of you ~ at 2:29 AM
